The Girl Who is Always "Ok"

So here I am. 20 years old, with a mind as foggy as my former 16 year old self. It's weird to picture myself inside the open hallways of my high school. Sticking out like a sore thumb, yet all too average to be considered anything more that another human being. It doesn't matter. I graduated almost 2 whole years ago- yet it feels like an entire lifetime. My skin hasn't gotten more comfortable, but rather I've gotten more acquainted with my discomfort. Much like my Harley Davidson boots I bought, knowing they were much too small for my feet and yet I still wear them at least 3 times a week. Because I love discomfort, I love finding reasons to cry, self-sabotage is my specialty. I'm at that perfect spot in between restless and lazy. With action and imagination comes the great possibility that I will in fact fail. Faith is a troubling reality to a lazy person, it shifts all the weight on to the fact that it is you and you alone holding you back. Got a bunch of self hat